If there's anything that's been drummed into me in the past few months, and having especially clicked in the past week is that you can do what you think you can't. Even if it's small things, you can do it.
Back in April, I started doing blogilates. And while it's only been 2 months, I'm starting to feel really different from when I started including ways I didn't expect. I'm literally the unfittest person I know. I'm not exaggerating. I would walk 1km on the treadmill and call it an achievement. I didn't realise it till now but I didn't just hate exercise, I feared it. I was that kid at school who couldn't throw, catch, I ran the slowest, jumped the lowest, you get the picture. While it was laughed off and my friends and I thought of me as the non-sporty one, it planted a tiny but strong seed of insecurity that never left. I know this doesn't sound like a big deal, but this was the one thing I was convinced I was never going to do. So you can imagine, doing blogilates, or any kind of sport voluntarily (without any superficial aim) was a huuge step. I didn't expect to get any results for months with my stiff muscles but after two weeks, I started noticing that tiny bit of extra strength, that tiny bit of muscle, the tiny but growing ability to push through pain.. and I thought, shit. I can do this. I can push myself and get results. It was literally the first time I felt like I did something I really believed I couldn't. Now I'm even thinking of adding running to the calibre. And if I could fit it in, I would love to take up dancing/hip hop classes, especially because I've always wanted to and feared starting as an adult. (Seriously, who am I..?) And now, slowly but surely, I'm starting to question every moment I think I can't do it.
Since, I've started to feel like other parts of my mind and therefore other parts of my life are opening up. I'm really getting used to questioning moments I think I can't do something. Because it's not a matter of yes or no, but how. Creating a plan and sticking with it. Trust me, I'm still starting small. But it's not where you start, it's where you push yourself to be. So if there's something you think you can't do. Do it.
You heard the him.
x, mai-anne
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